7 day circles

14 contacts
18 incoming - 5 missed 
30 outgoing - several dropped -1 pocket dial
3 family - 11 friends - 2 work
8 area codes
2/4 applications plainly refuse

rational - cautious - warranted - revered or hesitant - avoidant - ascetic - antisocial? 
or wanting and reticent? or maybe some other vein altogether?

visited s.f. at the garden house to celebrate. left prematurely - hoping to catch m.r. and his restless pictures. shuffled pleasantries. ate together, and afterwards - 1 last drink. sat aside p.s. and discussed mechanics.

had spent the afternoon sucking teeth (needless / imaginary), only to witness its passing. 

called mum on the way back. rode 4 k - walked 5 to prolong. she said it’s 15 below, but blooming indoors.

keys turned shy of 1. reported to anna that all went well. shook her head. laughed. rolled into sleep. 

-connection is difficult to classify
-privacy, and its costs, are difficult to appraise
-uncertainty too, can satisfy

wrote it down.

7日循環

14個聯絡人

18通來電 - 5通未接來電

30通已撥出的電話 - 有幾通斷線 -1通誤撥

3通是家人- 11通是朋友 - 2通是關於工作

8個地區的電話代碼

4個申請中有2個被拒絕

理性的 - 小心的 - 被警告的 - 尊敬的或猶豫的 - 迴避的 - 清心寡慾的 - 反社會的？
還是稀缺與沈默的？亦或有可能是其他的情緒？

在花園洋房與s.f.見面並慶祝，倉促地離開——希望能遇到m.r.和他那些不安的形象。蒙混的寒暄。共食，接著——喝最後一杯。坐在p.s.的一旁討論運作方式。

已經花了一下午吮吸牙齒（不必要的/ 虛構的），只為見證它的逝去。

在回家路上打給媽媽。騎了4公里——為了延長而步行了5公里。她說外頭低於15度，室內卻開花。

按鍵變為略小於1。回報anna一切都很好。她搖了搖頭。笑了。睡著了。

-聯繫難以分類
-隱私及其成本難以評估 
-不確定性也可以滿足

將其寫下。